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| UBC is really a bitch What can i say. i am not writing this for myself. i am ok. just finish our chemistry final today. 2.5 hour exam and at least 70 percent of people didn't finish. and for those who finish, each of them will have at least one question that they sort of just guessed. of course, it is still a 90 at least for me. but 1/3 of people will fail. fail their final= fail their class and the test will NOT BE SCALED. that is why so many people dropped out from univresity. (number of people taking this chem class= 2000) | | |
| Terry's Exam schedule vs Confidence Levels: 12/6 BIO 121--- 70 percent confident right now 12/9 Phys 101---75 percent confident 12/11 Chem 121--- 60 percent confident 12/12 English 112--- 60 percent confident 12/13 Math 102- 85 percent confident. Date recorded december the first. | | |
| 7: 24AM Again, one more sleepless night. well. i am sort of used to not sleeping for a couple of days now. There are just so much stuff that i need to learn and i need to do. I don't know. why? i mean why? all the other people whom i talked to aren't doing this. i am tired. my love can you hear me.....i bet you that you can't. cause you don't want to hear a tool's words. wait do tools even utter anything? i guess not. the preiodic sound of rain drops is really killing me now. it goes so uniformly as if it just doesn't fucking let me go. among all the bad things, there is only one good thing about me. i work hard. i can't sleep if i don't finish my stuff. well, i would rather not have this character. it is a torturer to just sit down on a chair now. my back hurts so much that it is destroying my spine. thank you god for giving me such character without any other supportive ones like being smart or being fast. well. things will all come to an end in 20 days. After the next 20 days, i want to be with her and try my best to be a person to her. not just a tool. i will try. but i will fail. at least my car will never reject me. i miss her so much. Lastly, peter. thank you for being my supportive friend. too bad you are not female. HAHAHAHAHA PS. why are energy drinks so expensive. i mean come on. RED BULLs are like 12 dollars per 4 cans. and they are just water plus sugar and caffine. next time, i will just pure caffine and dilute it with pure deionized water and enject them into my blood like taking drugs. probably work better. | | |
| It's only natural to not like me. --- i am selfish, stupid, ignorant, hentai, marks grabbing, irritating, boring, ugly, low self esteem, loud, judgmental, irrational, ect... please keep this list going. it is natural to not like me and even hate me because i suck at being a person. i wish i can be a tool. | | |
| Do you want to accomplish your dream? Are you just trying to be like somebody? Are you sure that you are comfortable with which ever way you are flying? Isn't the most important part to just have the courage to fly? Though i once said i couldn't make it. There were smiles, tears, and vexations.Once i wake up in the morning, everything is up to me to feel. Live. Become myself. Of course, it is always great to be able to enjoy happiness. Believe in myself, keep going, though that means i will have to preform the same tasks many times to get it right. It is just a part of me. Not just me, we are all the same. | | |
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